Skillet..

...is one of my favorite bands ever! I loved seeing them the other night. And their new album is pretty much amazing. One of my favorite songs from it is called Forgiven.

Forgiven

Forgive me now cause I

Have been unfaithful

Don't ask me why cause I don't know

So many times I've tried

But was unable

But this heart belongs to you alone.

Now I'm in our secret place

Alone in your embrace

Where all my wrongs have been erased

You have forgiven

All the promises and lies

All the times I compromise

All the times you were denied

You have forgiven.

Forgive me I'm ashamed

I've loved another

I can't explain cause I don't know

No one can take your place

And there is no other

Forever yours and yours alone.

Take me to our secret place(We'll leave the world away)

I get down on my knees

Feel your love wash over me

There will never be another

You're the only one forever

And you know I'm yours alone.

Motivation for Life

I just feel like writing about some of my best friends. My friends are my motivation for life.

I'll start with Dani.

Dani's been my best friend since I was 8. Ever since her fist Sundays at MFC I knew I wanted to be her friend. We are COMPLETE opposites, but so alike at the same time. We like something

things totally opposite, and some totally the same. She's a vegetarian, Im addicted to burgers But take us both to Dutch Bros and we'll get the same thing. We're always finishing each other's sentences and saying the same thing at the same time. We've decided we have our own page (: haha. From when people use the expression "on the same page" and everything like that. We're just a bunch of crazies. Even though I can't really talk to Dani about problems and emotions as much, I still have a great time with her. It's nice to have a friend to just have a good time with, and not have to worry about everything thats going on. We have so many inside jokes, it's crazy. We call each other weird names in weird voices and weird ways. Theres even a lot that we've kinda forgotten. Like "my fever hurts" haha. oh man, good times. We don't get to spend as much time together as we used to because we're so busy, but I really hope it doesn't change things too much! We've been through a lot together, lots of fights, separation, guys, and whatever. And we're till going strong (:

Dani's a lot of fun and makes my life interesting. And I hope we stay BFF forevers for a long long time! I love you Danifred!

Now for Jered.

Jered makes my life so much more enjoyable. He's not only my boyfriend, but one of my most bestest friends (: He's always there for me, no matter what. Even if i come to him upset about something totally stupid, he still cares. He still takes the time to listen to me, and encourages me. Jered is constantly building me up, helping me become a better person, and encouraging me. I couldn't ask for anyone better.

He takes so much time out of his day to talk to me, even if we don't talk about anything at all. If I'm having a bad day my motivation is always that he's going to call me that night. And when I do talk to him every night, he always makes me feel better, and my day just gets that much better, even if he's not trying. Jered makes me laugh, he cares for me, and makes me feel special. What more could I ask for?

You know. I think a five-year old I know really deserves to make it on here, Olivia Lingner.

I can't believe it's been almost a year since she moved to California. I miss her a ton. She made me feel so loved, and so special and great every single time I saw her. Every Sunday she would run over to me and scream LYSSA! and hug me, and I would pick her up, and she would hug me some more, and I even got the occasional kiss on the cheek. She always followed me, and wanted me to hold her and give her my attention. During fellowship every once and awhile she would grab my hand and drag me everywhere, telling everyone she saw "this is my Lyssa!" she would even tell my mom. She would tell me I was pretty, and that she liked me best. I love Olivia, and I miss her soo much. It's amazing the effect a little kid can have on you.

Krista Jane (:

You know, I think everyone needs a Krista in their life (: Krista always puts a smile on my face

I love her care free spirit and innocence. She can sympathize with your feelings if you need her to, but most of the time she just helps me have a good time. Her attitude cracks me up, in a good way of course. She's just so funny. And her more than occasional blonde moments are so cute. I don't think it makes her look stupid at all, even if thats what other people try and tell me. They make Krista so cute and lovable. Krista is so beautiful. I truly mean that. Inside and out. I envy her so much. Krista is so sweet, and so much fun. I love her a lot (: And like I said before, everyone needs a Krista in their life, despite what Dani might tell you! haha. Thanks Krista, for filling my life with laughs and good times.

So there you have it. Just a few of the people that have helped make my life better, and so worth it. There are a lot more people I love and that have made a difference. And I love you all.

Halloween

I feel like ranting about Halloween.

It's pointless and retarded. I mean, it doesn't sound like it was a long time ago, it sounds like a lot of fun. But what it's been turned into is just horrible and stupid.

Like, tick-or-treating is so dumb now, from what i heard it used to be worth it, like with real food, and not tiny little cheap candies. And now it's just not safe. Like there's so many creepers out there. And people do horrible things to the candy they give out. and its just all about getting a pillowcase full of candy from strangers and being creepy.

Ok. I'm done. Halloween is just dumb and pointless.

hmm...

So it's been a few weeks. Opps (: oh well.

A lot has happened since my last post... like my Birthday! It was pretty good. The weekend before was the volleyball tournament, I had fun for the most part. I was kinda shaken up for a while though, I don't like being almost squished by guys who are a lot bigger than me. But I had fun, I really miss playing Volleyball.

Jered and I ditched early after the games were done to hang out with friends for my Birthday. The plan was to go to the park, but it rained too much. So we all just stayed at my house. Hannah, Kaylin, and Sheridan came over, and we tried to play cards, and we ate pizza, and we had a lot of fun (: then they left for the dance at school, and Ashley A. came over (: we just kinda hung out, and then we watched one of my favorite movies, A Walk to Remember.

On Sunday I got a lot of Happy Birthdays, thanks guys (: and I can't really remember, but i thinmk it was a good day. Haha. Then Tuesday was my actual birthday. I had a good day at school I think, I dont really remember a whole lot. I had fun being tyrant though, I DO remember that (: In PE i had to lead warm-up, but since it was my bday Mr. Pinkerman said we only had to do half of it.

After school I opened the presents from my family. Kyle got me the 120 pack of crayons that i had really wanted. And my parents got my a Purity ring and a huge giftcard to buy clothes and things i'm going to need for Mexico! (We're leaving in 30 days!!) After that we met the Niswanders at Romeo's for dinner. It was really good. I had pizza, and then a death by chocolate for dessert. It was really good.

I got a lot of cards in the mail through the week, I love getting cards. So thanks if you sent me one! (: So it was a great birthday week.

So now I can't really remember what else has happened since then.
Oh! I got a job for the summer. I'm going to be babysitting the cute little girl next door twice a week this summer. And because I got that job, I was able to work out something with Dad to finally get my own laptop. And i'm using it right now! I'll have it paid off by September. I love it.

So I think thats about it. Life has been pretty boring. Mostly school, and I've done quite a bit of shopping done for Mexico. I am SO excited. I get to see Seattle for the first time too! And I think we're going to a Major League baseball game too while we're staying iin Seattle, I could do without that, but Dad says I'll like it... yeah, whatever.

Ok. I think I'm going to be done now (: This is long... so yeah...

(:

Blonde Moment for the day.

Even though this happened yesterday, it's my blonde moment for the day (:

So yesterday we were doing our Geometry homework in Health cause we all got done with our assignment half way through class. And so one of the last problems was a story problem. And the persons name in it was Alyssa. So I got Sheridan's attention and i said look I'm famous! And then I turned to Kaylin and said look I'm forest... no famous! hahahahaha. Wow. It was great. And I told Sheridan what I did and said those 2 words don't sound anything alike! and I said... Yes they do! they both start with S!

It was hillarious. Cause I didn't mean to do any of it. (:

Poor Jeremy....

So today Sheridan and I finally named our frog while i was cutting him open. We named him after that song that goes Jeremiah was a bullfrug he was a good friend of mine! crap. that songs gunna be stuck in my head forever now. haha. But we both liked Jeremy better than Jeremiah. so yeah.

So going back to the start of my day... Broadcasting was boring as always. All the seventh graders were in there taking their ISATs. So I couldn't talk at all, like when i needed help cause it wasn't working. haha. so I didn't get anything done either, I'm supposed to be taking all the talent show video and making it nice. Then Spanish was fun. We colored and listened to a story again. And Senora Wangler taught us what they say for do you need to go to the bathroon? Its great. And we all laughed really hard. Then English was boring. We just read more of our novel. And then Geometry was just ok. And then we had borritos for lunch, my favorite!! And we didn't do anything fun again, cause we had to count all the spirit points. I think we actually beat the sophomores this time.

And then there's Biology. So i already said that i named the frog. Sheridan and I made a deal that if it turned out being a dude a could name it. cause she didn't think it was. but I was so right (: haha. So then i had to cut it open. Bleh. The thing that bothered me most was all the juicey stuff inside. it made me all dizzy when it all sloshed around. So I looked up and the wall in front of me turned purple and stuff and then i was holding it open for Sheridan to finish cutting and the frog was pretty much vibrating. Haha. It was funny. So then I had to go to Global. Bleh. And we had to do another Webquest. I really don't like those.And I still have to finish it. Crap... I'm gunna have a lot to do tomorrow night. And then health was just more presentations. (:

So not a bad day. But nothing super exciting. Oh yeah. After school I had to go to the dentist. AHHH! I hate the dentist. And I was going in to get 2 cavities filled. I was so nervous, cause theres a needle. So the lady noticed i was really anxious and she asked me about it. So I told her about the whole being squeemish about needles. And so when I got in there she said that i pretty much had the most comfy chair they had, and she turned on the massage thing on it. It felt so good. And then they let me watch TV. And then she said it would be better if they gave me the happy gas. haha. They were right. I love that stuff. But we didn't want to pay extra for it. So they said i could have it right before and while they were giving me the shots. And they wouldn't charge. So they gave it to me, and it smelled sooo good. And it made me feel really cool (: And i could feel the shot. So i really really really concentrated on the TV. and I didn't pass out! haha. So then when the took it off my nose was numb too. That is the weirdest feeling... And only half my mouth was numb. Which was really funny when I had to move my face. Like when they told me to open my mouth I wasn't totally sure I was actually openeing. And smilings the worst. Cause only half my mouth is working. And then the whole things dried out my lips a ton, so I had to use chapstick, that was hillarious. But my face is finally almost back to normal adn it's been over 5 hours (: haha.

So then I worked on my Autism presentation for Thursday And ate dinner, that was interesting... and then went to Volleyball. It was fun, but we didn't play as much. oh well. Now i'm waiting for a phonecall, then I"m going to bed and reading Twilight!

So... thats all (:

♥

Haha...

Wow. Its been a long time! I kinda want to start doing this again.

So since November...

• I've started enjoying school
• I discovered that i probably have dyselxia (: haha.
• Starting hanging out with different people at school. and its AWESOME.
• I haven't grown any. YAY!
• I got a camera for Christmas and use it all the time.
• I've gotten a new phone.
• I haven't killed Oliver.
• I've only read about 3 or 4 books. haha.
• I've lost some friends.
• I made a purse out of 2 Doritos bags and tape.
• I discovered that i LOVE to color with crayons and do it all the time.
• I got four shots and almost passed out.
• I disected a worm and a starfish.
• I've been getting headaches a few times a week. (I've got one right now!)
• I lost one of my best little buddies! I miss you, Olivia!
• We decided we're going to Mexico in 65 days!
• I've gotten like four cavities. Oops!
• And... done homework! yay! yeah right....

So I guess you could say I"ve been pretty busy.

And now I think I'm just going to write about my weekend and my day (:

So this weekend was pretty fun. I had more homework than I usually do on the weekend, but I still got it done. Papa flew into town on Friday. And we got ice cream on the way home from the airport, it was yummy. Saturday I was woken up by the pyscho robin in our backyard. He was perched on the patio furniture and a folded up chair banging against the glass door every minute or so. And he pooped everywhere. It was so bad it just looked like a 3 year old was sitting out there was a melty oreo blizzard. Ick. It really scared Zoe, to the point where she had to stay in the bathroom with me while I showered. haha. I started my homework and then I had to leave for the movies! I went and saw 17 Again with Dani, Haley, Krista, Natalie, and Clint. I had so much fun. We couldn't hear anyone laughing in the entire theater except us. haha. We were just about to die! I really liked it, excpet for the whole concept of becoming 17 when you're all old. haha. That part was really really weird and lame. But it was funny. Then i went home and finished more homework and watched Bedtime Stories with Kyle, Dad, and Papa.

Then Sunday I got to sleep in a little more than usual! We had to have Sunday School with the little Jr. Highers, which was alright. And then service was alright too, really empty and nothing exciting. Then we went to lunch with Chris at Fiesta Guadalajara. Not my favorite, but oh well. I had fun. Then I didn't really do anything until youth group. We went and picked up Ashley A. and we were late, but we didn't miss anything. The speakers at high school camp last year came and spoke, Cole and Lacey. It was really good. He talked about how people need to overcome their issues and not let them get in the way of life. Like the guy with the crippled hand who Jesus healed. He talked about how issues get in the way, like how his white legs keep him from doing things that require shorts or just even wearing shorts, or being really small and wanting to play on the football team. He talked about how God thinks exteremly highly of us. He showed us a cup full of sand and talked about how the Bible says that God thinks good things about us more times then there are grains of sand on the entire earth. And I thought it was really cool. Then he prayed for our youth group and about how the guys need to step up and lead everyone else and stuff. And thats what was going to make our youth group so much better. No wonder we're so screwed up ;) haha. Just kidding.

Ok, now today. Well. I woke up and got ready pretty fast. First period, broadcasting, I really didn't do anything. And then we had Spanish outside, and all we did was listen to a story and color, it was fun. Then English we read our book, Across Five Aprils. I'm not sure if I like it or not. Then Geometry was kinda fun because we're doing some algebra stuff. I miss algebra. Then lunch was fun. Nothing exciting, which is weird. Then Biology we started our frog disection. I'm partners with Sheridan again. Which really isn't a good idea cause I shouldn't be trusted with sharp things. And Sheridans not good with like, cutting things. haha. Its fun. But the last two disections we've ended up with the worst one out of everybodys. Our worm was mush, and out starfish was mushier. So we'll see about our little froggie. We haven't cut into it yet. And we're still trying to name it. Thats probably because I couldn't really think about anything cause I was too scared it was going to bite me. haha. How sad it that? I was scared of that when we were just doiing the outside, and then we had to do the mouth. and I was the one who had to pry it open! haha. But is ok, it didn't bite me and I'm still alive (: Then Global Perspectives was lame, I don't like the crusades. And health started out really entertaining with Kaylin's OCD presentation. Then I went out to coffee with my daddy like I do every Monday. And that was my day (: